Saturday, June 30, 2012

Summer Blues

I've only been alone for 3 hours since school got out. For a hair appointment Thursday. This small house, the impossibility of keeping it clean while we're in it all of the time, the weather which is either too hot or rainy, the lack of free indoor things to do, and the constant noise/requests/fighting are starting to make me completely crazy.

Every day is exactly the same. With cleaning, working out, and mediating fights (and I hate all of these things). Throw in some extra kids and a few outings and it really doesn't help that much. And laundry, oh sweet baby Jesus, the laundry.

Mr. Ashley is on call a lot, so I can't even escape when he's not at work. He's kayaking today with some friends which is nice and all, but I've only been in my own kayak one time since I can never get away. Summer is more difficult money-wise too, so affording the occasional sitter for the sake of my mental health just isn't feasible and everyone I know is busy.

I just had to shout from the rooftops that I'm going crazy over here. How am I lonely when I'm literally never alone??  I'd gnaw off a finger to go see Magic Mike with some girlfriends.

Or just to sit somewhere quiet alone for a minute.

4 comments:

Melanie said...

We are all in the same summertime boat. It's nice to not have to get up and make lunches and be out the door before the sun is even all the way up, but at the same time it is equally hard to deal with kids all day. Do you ever just throw them out in the yard with a hose or a huge bucket of water? What about the bucket of water and some water guns? Honestly, if we didn't have a swimming pool I would probably have put my kids in summer school all summer long!

Preppy Pink Crocodile said...

OK I don't know if this will be helpful or not but I have heard a few girlfriends say similar things. One bestie will do a swap with friends. Not husbands. But they will watch each other's kids. So it sucks because you have two more kids in the house one night but then the next time, you get a kid free date night. Or however you work that out. And no paying for a sitter. I have another friend who goes grocery shopping (a task I hate so I feel she really must be desperate if this is her getaway) at like 10 PM when she is good and tired but because she can go solo. She doesn't even turn on the radio because it's the only time she gets absolute peace and quiet. And she loves that the store is practically empty so she can roam around without bumping into anyone.

Not that either of those are what you are looking for but I just thought I would offer the two tips I have gathered from friends in similar boats.

KK

Ashley said...

I did do a swap with my girlfriend for those blessed 3 hours of peace on Thursday, that is a good idea. I need to get that going with more people.

The hose thing is a good plan. They're actually good at entertaining themselves, I'm just going stir crazy myself. And the constant keeping up with the messes, I'm busting at the seams in this little place. We are supposed to get a pool key to a nearby pool soon, that'll be huge.

Solo grocery shopping sounds pretty good, little kid was a total asshole at Publix yesterday. But it doesn't seem quite fair for that dreaded chore to count as a luxury, does it? LOL

Renee said...

I wish we could hang out!!

-Renee