Thank you to everyone for all of the kind words about Murphy. I know that sort of thing is always weird to reply to since it's one of those situations where there's not much that can be said but I really do truly appreciate it. It feels really good that so many people care and makes his life feel even more meaningful.
It's been both good and bad that I've been too busy to dwell on it much. Interestingly, the yoga studio offered me a position managing the front desk staff. It's a sweet set-up. I was slightly hesitant but they are understanding of the writing gigs and parenting thing I have going and reassured me several times that they want me to live an excellent life and are only interested in helping me do that.
I couldn't help but think of how I (and by I, I mean my husband but I'm not placing blame because I'm all enlightened and shit) lost my keys, including the studio key--right after I got it. And how I was an hour late that one time I forgot I was on the schedule. And every single thing I've confessed to and demonstrated personality-wise in teacher training.
And they want to hire me?
There was some nervous side-eye from me during the initial proposal.
But now I'm feeling pretty lucky. These are brilliant business people who care about my opinion and about my life outside of the studio. It's a flexible schedule with lots of working from home, as I'm used to. I get free yoga, workshops, and an amazing retail discount. I also think it is amazing, and almost eerie, that I walked in there on a Living Social deal last March or something, feeling lost and alone, and accidentally ended up in teacher training and managing staff before the year was out. I definitely recognize that the universe worked out for me this time and I'm grateful.
(And still surprised that they picked me.)
Speaking of teacher training, my next weekend starts tomorrow. I just got back from Miami on a studio business trip. I have no clean yoga clothes. I have no food packed. I have not studied frantically at the last minute, as usual. Would it be cool to say I'm over the teacher training thing right now? Glad I did it but ready for it to be done.
If that's ungrateful, that's okay, as I am a work in progress.
(and still a jerk sometimes).