Friday, August 13, 2010

The Interview

Well, right after the interview I would have said it went well. But now that I have had many hours to review every single thing I said and compare it to every single thing I should have said, I have morphed the entire interview experience memory into me sounding like Miss South Carolina in the Miss Teen USA pageant.

And I KNOW it wasn't that bad! I did pretty well and gave a lot of great answers.

But man, the interviewer was good. If it was an essay test, I would have passed with flying colors, but some of the very open-ended, barely related to the situation at hand questions really threw me for a loop at first. They were all the type of questions that took a moment to think of an answer for and now I'm hoping I didn't look like a bumbling idiot while forming my responses.


Then I started getting nervous about these questions requiring in-depth complicated answers at a moment's notice and was over-thinking things as he was asking, instead of just relaxing and answering. This made me stumble a little on questions I usually ace (Why should we hire you? and What are your best qualities?). Again, I'm sure it was fine but I wish I could have a redo. They are looking for someone poised and articulate and I'm just not 100% confident that I was appearing that way by the end of the interview. I have also started misremembering his facial expressions and have convinced myself that he was outwardly hostile by the end of the interview--this 100% did NOT happen. At all. My memory of the situation clearly can't be trusted because it is out to sabotage me for some reason.

He'll be making a decision by August 27th (the day after the Jack Johnson concert, woohoo!) and honestly, I won't be devastated if they don't hire me. It's an awesome job, but one that will require an incredible amount of hours. I'd be away from home far more than 40 hours a week and they want me to regularly be on television. Yeah, I could be on television but the thought makes me want to barf. I would also need an entirely new wardrobe, including black tie stuff. Which would be fun, but expensive as I was getting started.

So, we'll see. If they can find someone better qualified who answered those questions more gracefully and who loves the thought of being on t.v., they should hire her. If I get the job, I will be excited and I will work my ass off and get some Valium for television appearances.

Mr. Ashley no longer loves the idea, especially knowing that I will rarely be home. I think he learned his lesson on telling me to get a job when he doesn't really mean it. I think we're both in the "If it's meant to be..." camp at this stage of the game and could take it or leave it.

So, I don't know. I guess keep your fingers loosely crossed for me?


Jennifer said...

I always do that same thing after an interview. I completely obsess. I think it is better to give your answers some thought than just blurting out the first thing that comes to mind. At least, that is usually better for me because the first things that come into my head usually do not need to be voiced.

shelly said...

Fingers loosely crossed for you! I know exactly what you mean, and it's quite a trap we're in isn't it? Trying to advance our careers and opportunities while there's a nagging need for us at home.

Cindy said...

The pre- and post-interview obsessing is something I and my friends are well acquainted with. I'm sure you did better than you are tricking yourself into remembering.

I felt the same way when I went back to work full-time after taking the summer off. I really wanted the job, and I really didn't want the job. I love where I work, but it's strictly 40 hours, mostly hiding in a cubicle. :)

::Fingers loosely crossed for what is best::

Former Fat Chick said...

was he cute? I once was interviewed by a super hot guy- I had no idea he was going to be good looking, it was off putting, I giggled and blushed like a school girl. He hired me and was an awesome boss :)

Theresa said...

Hmm. That sounds like a tough job - very demanding. I would certainly throw up if I thought I'd have to be on tv.

AnastasiaBeaverhousen said...

uncrossed the toes but keeping the fingers locked that the right thing happens. Sucks that this sounds like an awesome job with very un-awesome hours.