Saturday, May 18, 2013

Mash Up of my Heart

Yesterday was Big Kid's 4th grade musical.

I think I've mentioned this before, but school assemblies make me cry. All of them. No matter what. A really ugly laugh/cry hybrid that if I don't hold back, sounds like a distressed hyena.

This one was particularly hard though--they are so big. No longer are they the tiny little peanuts being silly on stage. Even the awkward, gangly children in ill-fitting clothes are fading. They are growing up, they are becoming real people, and they were just so lovely. I was overcome with emotion.

I was wondering if I was alone in these thoughts when Mr. Ashley turned to me and said, "You can tell who they will become. Like the little girl with the red hair?" and I laughed because I had noticed her too, so much in fact that I was ready to hunt down her parents to congratulate them on a job well done. There was nothing spectacular about her, you could just see the strong, confident woman she was about to grow into and she was particularly close to taking that step away from childhood. Many of them were like this, they were finally individuals instead of a group of goofy school kids.

The kids' new school has an amazing music program. At the first grade musical, they did a drum line and sang "We Will Rock You." They did it well, too. This one ended with a Cups/Some Days mash-up that I think was incredible--not just the concept but the performance too. I was so proud and impressed. Excuse the poor camera work, I had to concentrate so hard to hold in the laughing hyena cry.

I came home and watched it three times and happy/sad cried my heart out each time. Happy at their success and our success in raising them, and sad that so much raising has already happened so quickly.

The "You're gonna miss me when I'm gone," line makes my heart crumple, because it is so true.


Julie H said...

oh I do that too. Darn kids being so cute and growing up and doing awesome things.

Anonymous said...

I'm actually crying at that video. This school year ending is really getting to me. I don't think I'll be able to hold in my weird crying. My daughter is finishing up 4K and my heart just aches.

Social Lady said...

I thought I was the only one that got teary-eyed at my children's shows/events! I think back to when they were little babies and then reflect on how much they have grown. Now that my oldest is 19, I would love to go back and have one day with his younger self. The days truly do fly by. Great post!

KG said...

That's a great mashup!! Gosh, I wish every school had a music program like this.

I'm not a parent, but I definitely do think it's amazing that you can look at a kid around that age and really get a good sense of who they're going to be. It's pretty impressive, that transition from child to real...person.