I've made a new deal with myself.
I'm going to do the 30-day Shred Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. No one ever said the 30-days had to be consecutive.
I will say that today was SIGNIFICANTLY easier than last week, but my dread for doing it is growing and we all know if I decide I hate it, it will be a done deal. For someone who has hardly exercised in the past 6 years, working out for 20 minutes 3 days a week is not bad, and I'm going to try to hold myself to 20 minutes of some sort of physical activity on the days off too.
My new "life plan" (I'm so sick and tired of these life plans constantly failing) is 20 minutes of exercise, 20 minutes of writing (you all and work don't count), and 20 minutes of housework a day. This should be very doable and isn't nearly as much as I could/should be doing.
I turn 31 at the end of September. That sense of "holy crap, you're failing adulthood" has me in its grasp lately and now that I have 2 kids, a buttload of problems, and am officially IN my thirties--I can no longer deny official adulthood. Unfortunately.
So, I need to learn to be good at it, I guess. At the very least, I need to get some of this shit done.