Thursday, October 29, 2009

Turdsday

As I'm sure all of you know, I have been Desperate (with a capital D) for a good break from little kid for the last couple of months (at least). Mr. Ashley's been working 2 or 3 Saturdays a month lately and little kid has been especially naughty, and I'm just overwhelmed and tired.

I have been pleading with Mr. Ashley to please let me drop little kid off with his old babysitter for just one day--I could clean the house and attempt to find shreds of my sanity to piece back together. Mr. Ashley has repeatedly insisted that we didn't have the money for this type of luxury. I asked if he had bail money for whatever happened when I finally snapped and he laughed it off. I cried. I told him I was very serious and he said he knew and that when we could do it, we would. Soon, he promised.

So I've been waiting, asking on a weekly basis if we had the money, even applying to part-time or freelance jobs daily in the hopes of accumulating some money so I get could a break when needed.

This weekend I told Mr. Ashley that NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) was approaching and that I planned on doing it (but not by the rules, of course, because I like to complicate things) and that if I didn't get a day off this week to get us caught up on laundry and general housekeeping, that I would not be doing house work for all of November and we would be in a sad state of affairs by December.

Oh, and that I still badly needed a break from little kid.

And he said yes! Hallelujah, he said yes! I have hoped and dreamed for this peaceful day of cleaning for so long and finally he said yes!

So I emailed the babysitter Monday night. We normally email, so when I hadn't heard back yesterday, I was in a panic. I went to call her and realized her phone number is stored in the address book of a paid email account I had just closed. I thought it was in my phone too, but I guess not.

So I have no phone number for her (and she's a police man's wife, so they are unlisted). And I have little kid. And a messy house. And a violin lesson for Big Kid (and little kid has been banned from those, so I'll wait with him in the car while Big Kid goes in).

And I am so bummed! And so panicked that she'll never check her email and I will have lost her. Also, today was Big Kid's Fall Party at school (at 8:45 am which I thought was weird) and when he found out I wouldn't be able to stop by (because siblings are not allowed) he cried. Which made me want to cry because *I* am the one who should get to cry! *I* am the one missing out on the Fall Party and a clean house and the violin lesson and a day of semi-relaxation!

I sent Big Kid to his party with a big bag of fun treats for his friends, and I have a good new book to read during the violin lesson, and I'm pretty used to my messy house, and I'm trying to look on the bright side of things...

but it still really sucks!

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

You can't just stop by the sitter's house? You can't lose a good sitter! I feel for ya, sister, I'm dying for a break too! Sorry your break got cancelled on you :-(

LceeL said...

Yes - stop by the house and say "Hello". And get that phone number and make arrangements and get that sanity thing taken care of.

Ashley said...

I did think about just going over there because she is there every day, almost always watching other kids, but then I felt weird about just stopping by, especially since it's 45 minutes out of the way of anything and her and we haven't seen each other in a while.

If I don't hear from her by Monday, I will stop by because I can't lose her!

This week I'm not quite as insane as I have been but I was really looking forward to some Ashley-time today.

Anonymous said...

i will say a prayer for you.

Stereos and Souffles said...

I'm watching my friends 3 1/2 year old and all hell almost broke loose today, my first day. I honestly don't know how in the world mothers do it. I got her to bed at 7:30 and I could have sworn it was freakin midnight I am so mentally exhausted. Of course I blogged about it. She's giving me material that's for sure.

MzLiz said...

what kind of school doesn't allow siblings to come to parties??? That's ridiculous---really. I mean don't most people with kids in kindergarten or grade 1 have young sibs??? I think this is a conspiracy to stop any parents from attending.

Amy said...

Being an empty-nester with a ridiculously neat and clean house, I have to say that I would give just about anything to go back to the days when my kids were little. I look at pictures and simply ache for the feel of their little arms around my neck. I know they drive you crazy sometimes, but you'll have amazingly mature and rewarding relationships with them once they're older. Each stage is different, but rewarding in its own way. I'd still give just about anything to go back...

Joy said...

What siblings aren't allowed? That is crazy Abby is ALWAYS with me at Wyatt's school and they all love her.

If I could just get them to open the school to almost 4yr olds they could keep her!