Friday, April 18, 2008

Edited to Add:

No one be too concerned about the closet of doom reference in the next post. All in all, things are great, kids are healthy, roof is overhead, fridge is full. It's just the general state of the world that's got me down. For right now I will spare you the details because the things that have me feeling blue are either:

1. Depressing by anyone's standards. You know how sometimes you want to share a really gruesome detail or tragic story just to sort of relieve your own soul? But you know you're burdening the soul of the listener with stuff they'd be better off not knowing? That sort of thing.

2. Political. It may seem silly but the war is REALLY affecting me these days. I try to avoid it, but I just cannot, there is news and pictures and numbers everywhere I turn. In my very opinionated opinion, killing people just isn't right. No matter who you are.

3. Personal. So many people I know are dealing with sad stuff that it just adds to my general feeling of it being a struggle to live a normal life lately.

Also, the Heidi Louise stuff (which seriously pales in comparison to people's every day tragedies), there's only so much I'm going to go on and on about it here...but be nice to your dog. Because the regret of my indifference hurts even more than the loss and missing her. I feel like if I had loved her half as much as I miss her...trust me, it hurts.

And just general moving on, changing plans, new phase of life stuff...the sort of stuff you know is for the best but getting settled on the new path is bumpy.

Seriously, all sad, boring, depressing stuff that you'd rather not know. Well some of it you'd find interesting, because you're nosey bitches like that, but today's not your lucky day ;-)

So don't worry, I'm on my drugs, I'm not about to go drown myself in the bath tub (although a bath and some reading does sound good), I'm not keeping any amazing secrets from you all, I'm just in a funk and trying not to drag you all down with me.

I'll be back with some funny soon, I swear. In fact, maybe I need to run to the store (read: make Mr. Ashley run to the store) to get a bottle of wine to help make sure of that.

12 comments:

KatieGirlBlue said...

No need to apologize, Ashley. Just imagine sleeping in that canopy bed in one of those treehouses and rest your over-worried mind. That's the nicest thing about the blogosphere, I think: none of the IRL judgement and resultant guilt.

The Lining of My Life said...

Girl..I can totally relate...it'll be OK though.....know theres some people out there they you don't even know thinking about ya and smiles will peak at the next corner. Sending you a hug from Chattanooga, TN....

Kate said...

Wine always makes me cheer up! Wine, a warm bath, candles, and a great book is like sex without all the work!

Mitch said...

Buck up, little camper! We're here for you when you need us.

I'm with you on the war. The brother of one of my oldest friends was injured by a bomb in Afghanistan in January. He died in March and I attended his funeral in Arlington Cemetery. It really brought the wars home to me and I look at them so differently now.

Wine is the cure for all! Run, don't walk, to Publix. (yeah, i'm a lush)

Catfish said...

PS-I don't know how long you've had your copy under the "leave your comment" heading but I just noticed it yesterday and I think it's fucking hilarious. Almost as saying "hairless pussy" to complete strangers...but not quite, saying hairless pussy will always win that award. xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxo CF

jennyandcompany said...

hugs hon, we all get in a funk now and then. pretty soon your eyes will be open again to all the wonderful blessings you have, we just get overwhelmed with the yucky stuff every once in a while to make sure we appreciate the good even more.

Life, Love & Lola said...

Wine not Whine. Love It! Mind if I borrow that one? I needed a new plan! Not sure if you've read my blog or not...I've gone through some rough shit lately too. Keep your chin up. It's gonna get better.

Lindsay said...

You shouldn't feel guilty for Heidi Louise making you feel upset just because the state of the world sucks. Dogs are our children, too, in more ways than I have time to compare. And don't get yourself down feeling like you were indifferent towards her. I'm sure she felt the love, even if your sadness right now makes you think she didn't.

Shannie said...

Awww, Ashley. Hang in there, sister. If I could give you lots of hugs and drink a bunch of wine with you I sooo would. {{{Cyber hugs and lots of booze}}}

Kathy said...

Cheer her up...think. think. think.

My daughter had the stomach flu and when she got diahrea she said, "I don't feel good mommy. I throwed up in my butt."

Funny right!?! Until I had to clean it up and then not so much.

Mamalicious said...

I sorry the sad state of the world and other shiz has you in a funk. That's why you should avoid the news and only watch VH1. You don't even have to think thoughts if you are watching Flava Flav.

Also, you should get a Xanex to nibble on as you drink your wine. Srsly.

(((HUGS))) Honey!
Holly

Deb said...

I'm a nosy bitch. Feel free to email me directly. In the meantime, drink up.